Freaking out - again

So the school in India emailed me yesterday to see if my summer graduate program has any flexibility to release me early. WAAAH?!!? They were supposed to call me back in March to let me know whether I was shortlisted for the job. I never heard anything, so I assumed they had filled the position, and I told myself the very comforting fib that it was surely because of the conflict in grad school/work scheduling. It turned out to be Absolutely True. I should have followed up earlier because now we are all in a tizzy wondering if we can sell our house and all our worldly possessions by June 16th.

My brain has exploded in my braincase. I am absolutely useless at work. If they take another three weeks to respond to me, I expect my heart to burst as well.

I think I might be happy either way, but the suspense is k_i_l_l_i_n_g me.