musings of a crazy vagabond

[lifebythedrop]

So today I showed the movie version of Othello in my English 2 classes and came home to drink a bottle of wine and watch 5 episodes of Avatar:The Last Airbender in retaliation for the insanity of

So we are still waiting for the final word from India, which they mentioned might be last Friday, but then they gave our references until Monday(today) to respond, and we haven't heard yet. The anticipation is killing. I have reconciled myself to either outcome, but I really, really need to know which it's going to be. In preparation, we have put our "fixer-upper" house on the market (today!), and over the weekend, BetterHalf replaced both toilets while I laid laminate flooring in the bathroom and put beadboard paneling on the walls, painted the kitchen, and started on the trim (which I set the kids to work on taping off throughout the house.)

Everytime I have sat down, I've nearly fallen asleep with a cup of coffee in my hands. And then yesterday, the dam broke.

We've put lots of things we don't need/don't use up on craigslist, and we've made about $400 and cleared a lot of junk, but yesterday we sold the dining table. It feels like we have cut the heart out of our house. I had no idea, of course, that I would feel this way about it, or I would have delayed. I just kept finding myself over and over thinking about sitting at the table together an planning something and then realizing that we had sold the table and now the front room of our house is just a big empty shell.

So...I thought, we ought to move the HUGE sectional couch and ALL the AV equipment out of our perfectly well put- together Media room (read: former Master bedroom) and out into the open living room. Shuffle th ebed back into the Master, change our current bedroom into an office, oh hell, the list of revisions goes on and on. My husband looked at me patiently and said, "I don't think we need to do that."

I sulked for a couple of hours and cried about it when no one was looking. I know that a big part of it was stress, and exhaustion played a pretty significant role as well. I've let go of my big house reconfiguration plans. Whoever buys this place is just going to tear it all up to redo it. It's part of the stress in making it all nice - I know that the next person will demolish whatever we've done. But it still has to look OK, right? I don't even know anymore. I'm just ready to be out from under it, I think. India or no.

I'm still hoping for India.

And waiting for word.

*frustrated*

Comments

[the-reverand.livejournal.com]

Aw, it's hard leaving a place, even if it's exciting too. (And here's where I link to a weirdly appropriate Dinosuar Comic and hope it doesn't seem too flippant.)

This might be kind of really nosey but you mentioned them... you have kids? What an opportunity for them! To go to India! Do they like the idea?

Once again, good luck. :)

[lifeby-thedrop.livejournal.com]

I love Dinosaur comics. And xkcd. And jokes about memory and philosophy. And boy do I need all the laughs I can get. We have people coming to look at it today at 11:15 and 2:30. *crossed fingers*

[lifeby-thedrop.livejournal.com]

Oh, yeah, and I have two kids - an 11-year-old daughter and a 9-year-old son. They are excited/nervous/clueless. It's hard to think that far into the future at that age (you know- to the end of the month.) It's all a bit unreal at this point.

[lizzie-omalley.livejournal.com]

Actually, from a staging point of view, following your suggestion may well be the better idea. Rooms that are set up too far from their intended purposes tend to be off putting to buyers. At least from the point of view of the shows about selling houses that I like to watch.

Hugs. It is a huge stress to let go of the past to move to the future. Match that with all of the end of the school year stress...

I have my fingers crossed for India.

[lifeby-thedrop.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that's the impression I get from those shows as well, but I'm thinking I'm just not going to pick this battle.

[lizzie-omalley.livejournal.com]

Totally understandable!